I swear my mom is bipolar. Just a few weeks ago she was asking me to come home, that she was working to build our relationship together. I stayed over for thanksgiving last week and she kept say, see don't you miss being here with the family don't you want to come back home? So I called her today, she asked why I had called, I told her because I forgot to do so yesterday. She said it was a good thing I didn't cause her phone was messed up, I asked her what was wrong and she told me that it was none of my buisness, then she started to go on about how she couldnt trust me. I asked her what I had done that she couldnt trust me. She said things that I had posted on facebook and just the way I act around her. I asked her what I posted on facebook that caused her not to trust me (cause she dosnt have a facebook.) She said that Tammy, a lady that lives in the neighborhood (whom she does not trust or like for only god knows what reason), had told her about things that I post on facebook. I paused and thought about what I posted on facebook. I don't know what I put on facebook that has made me untrustworthy because I only post my feelings and things that happened to me throughout the day, never anything untrue, If I have somthing to say, I'm gonna say it and im not gonna lie about it. I asked her how did I act that has made her not trust me. As far as I know, the only time I got mad at her was when she would do something really mean and insulting, or start yelling at me for no reason or some other random crap. I only yelled at her when she yelled at me, sometimes not even then. I find myself to be a very trustworthy person. She seems to be the only person on the face of this planet that does not trust me. Why? I don't know. Will I find out? Yes, I will search deaper and deeper until I coem to the meaning, why she stopped loving, and trusting me. And will I go "home" to a place where I can't be trusted or loved? No, it's kind of hard to live with someone who wishes that they had never giving birth to you. What am I going to do about that? Hold my head up high, keep on walking, and just smile and wave.
(Ignor any spelling mistakes.)
No comments:
Post a Comment