Oh my god, I don't even know what to do anymore. He acts like he dosn't even want to be my friend. I don't know what I did. I know I havn't been to clingy, infact I think i've even been keeping my distance cause I know he dosn't want me around as much. I say hi to him at lunch, then bye before we leave to go home and i give him a hug. Last night he apoligizedd for being so distant that he was busy with school and stuff. Yeah so busy with school he can't even hold a full conversation with me anymore. My god, just last week everyone thought we were going out and now its like we never even knew each other. Like wtf? And today is the day im suposed to give him his present but im gonna wait till the end of the day so i don't have to see him open it. I have a feeling he's gonna think it's really stupid. As much as I bragged about it he's probably expecting somthing extreamly awesome thats not a jar. -_- Oh well.

Sucks to suck

Well... i don't really have much to say. The guy I thought I loved or liked thinks he is inlove with another girl so there gooes that freegin dream. I don't know, i'm tired of dreaming big. I'm tired of trying so hard to keep good grades, trying so hard to get people to like me. I'm just tired of it all. I know working this hard has payed off and will continue to pay off but I just want to escape and give up for awhile. But in reality I can't, so, im just gonna do what I do best: put on a smile, hold my head up and keep on walking.

Graduation Project

Okay, so a few months ago (i think) I posted something about some picture i took for my graduation project.  I finally got them onto my computer. YAYYY! So here they are.
Look them up on google for the origonal images.

 Me as Frida Khalo

 My friend Nathaniel as James Dean

 My friend Adiair as Bob Marley

 Me and Nathaniel as Bonnie and Clide

 Me and Nathaniel as the Sailor and Nurse.

LOST Christmas

A couple posts back I made a post about my favorite show, Lost and how it was the best show on the entire planet. And also in my last I mentioned a guy I think I might like. Well, Lost is kinda what brought us closer as friends.
There was a scene in the first season where Clair, a pregnant chick, tells Charlie, a famous guitarist from the band Drive Shaft, that she is craving peanut butter. Charlie promises her that he can get her a jar of peanut butter. They make some kind of deal, i don't remember what. But the next day Clair wakes up and Charlie tells her that he got her peanut butter. She's like 'OMG! NO WAY!' and he pulled out an empty mason jar. She looks at him disappointed and asks him what that was. He tells her that its the best peanut butter she will ever taste, he then sticks his finger in the jar and pretends to scoop up peanut butter and then "eats" it. Clair gives off a small laugh and proceeds to do the same. SO My point is, I have a mason jar and I am going to do the same thing for my friend for Christmas  I hope he likes it and actually understands why i'm giving him an empty jar for Christmas.

I don't know what to title this.

Okay, so as you may know, I have recently come out of a relationship. I feel fine, well, as fine as someone can be after coming out of a ten month relationship. I took this break up alot better then I did my first high school break up. I was crying off and on for days with that one. But anyways, all week people has been telling that I look depressed or that im not as giddy as I used to be. And im just like, dafu? I thought I was acting the same way I always did, but I guess not. So any ways, I don't know why but I felt like talking about a delima that I have recently placed myself into.
Since September I have been talking to a guy, no lovey dovey stuff, just as friends. Over the past few months we have become really good friends, and now I think I might like him. I know he likes me cause he has told me several times. But the thing is, I don't wont to go out with him 1) because i've only been single for about 5 days. 2) because I don't wont to go out with him, something comes up and we end up breaking up and it get between us and ruin our relationship. I love being friends with him and I would rather be friends with him then nothing at all. And now I just don't know what to do.
Okay, well there goes my problem of the day, enjoy. :)

Boys -_- (OH HEY LOOK I FOUND IT!)

I am constantly getting mad at my boyfriend for random stupid crap tht he does. Now I'm mad at him again, but this time, weel its not the stupidest but I guess its th breaking point. He called me a slut. I know your probably thinking well big deal so waht. Well, it wouldnt be the first time he has done it, he is constantly calling me things like; slut, bitch, whore. He is always telling me that he is joking but its still really annoying. I hav asked him to stop but abviously he doesnt listen ( i don't remember what i was going to say next so you can finish the story on your own.)

Drama is a pain.

Okay well, I forgot to press publish on my last post and for some reason a draft didn't save and i don't feel like retyping it. But pretty much it was just saying how i think me and my boyfriend is going to break up because he was getting really annoying and could be a jerk sometimes. Well, I broke up with him, or atleast I thought I did. One of my friends came up to me earlier today and asked why I had changed my relationship status on Facebook if I was still in a relationship. I told her that I was single and she said that Anthony, my boyfriend (or ex,) was still telling people that we were still going out. And now I don't know what to do cause I thought I made it pretty clear when I said "Anthony, there isn't going to be a next time, I think we should break up." And then of coarse I started to cry but i still don't see how he thinks we are still going out. I'm just really confused now cause I don't want to hurt his feelings. :(