Ketchup

Okay, well. I found my journal so i started to write in that again but i thought i'd just let you know whats been going on. I moved back in with my mom in may, she kicked me out in june, i live with Anthony now. ( Don't know if I ever mentioned him but he was a good friend now my current boyfriend) Accordin to my journal, i got a little sappy over he and i going back out again. Apparently, i really really love him, i'm not saying i don't but jeesh, when did i become so sappy? I turned 17. I think I matured cause im starting to be wiser about my choice of friends. Anthony broke up with me and we started going back out two days later. And thats about it. Wait! I did get accepted in Pembroke but i failed all my classes last semester so im gonna graduate early and take some classes at cape fear and see what happens from there.

Memories

I don't write or post or whatever often because there things I want to forget. Memories that I share with other people that I know I should cherish but feel the need to forget. I choose to want to forget those things because you past makes you who you are, you don't have to live based on your past, but its what builds you to make you stronger.
There are some things you know for sure you will never forget, those are the secrets you will carry with you to your grave. You don't have to share these things but don't let them stop you from being who you want to be. Embrace who you are. (unless your some kind of serial ax murderer, then you have some issues and should get some serious help.)

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Getting this off my chest

Awhile back me and this guy got into a fight (if you wanna call it a fight) we havnt talked since, he did message me once but I didnt answer and other then that we havnt made any contact with each other. I don't know why but it's been on my mind all day and I guess i just need to vent about it. I am going to vent as though I am talking to him just to kind of tell him everything im too afraid to tell him in person.
I am sorry. I am sorry if it seemed as though I've been a bitch this whole time. I don't know what I did to upset you but I apologize a thousand times. If its cause you thought I liked you, its not. I never liked you like that, you were my best friend and nothing more, you liked another girl and I respected that. I wouldnt tell you who I likedd because I am superstitious and didnt want to jinx anything by telling someonoe. And in my defense, you have been an asswhole too, you had no right telling me to fuck off because I didnt want to haave a stupid political debate? dafuq? okay well, yea, just thought I'd let you know so umm yeah, bye.

When all else fails.

Sometimes your not gonna have any clue on what to do with a situation, in case such as this all you have to do is lift your head high, smile and wait until a solution finds its way to you. Now, don't think that im saying if your patient a solution will jump out in front of you, cause its not. You are going to have to do something, some sort of soul searching to solve your problems.

The thing about life.

Life is going to screw you over many times, when it does your going to be the only person who can get you out of the mess. Eventually life is going to give you some lemons to help you out, don't take 'em. Pick them up and throw them right back at life, you've made it this far on your own, you can go further on your own, you don't need any stupid lemons.

Ranting time.

Okay so I know I haven't posted in awhile and i hate to come back with this but I just have a lot on my chest that i would like to get off. There's just been a lot going on between school, friends and trying to find a job. So time to rant.
First off, remember that guy that i talked about in my last post? Well, the other day he told me to fuck off, i should have listened when everyone told me he was a dick but nooo i have to see the best of people. But seriously, how the hell are you gonna randomly message someone you don't know, become good friends with them, lead them on and make them think that you like them, then tell them that your in love with some other chick so you do the right thing and give them advice on how to get the chick, then they get with her and they don't even fucking know you anymore. Like seriously? its fucking retarded. people are just so retarded sometimes. But hey, that relationship ain't gonna last forever, and when it does , he's gonna come crawling back to me and its gonna be my turn to tell him to fuck off.
Second, college is so fucking hard, my god, two classes 15 minutes apart located on the opposite side of campus, I'm going to 5 minutes late to my math class every day, luckily the professor  is a nice guy and he says that that will be fine. But on the other bright side, I am doing good on my new years resolution and i havnt procrastinated on anywork so far. Crap, that jus reminded me i havnt finished my chemistry work yet. Well, unless i think of something else, this should be the end of my rant. From now on, im going to try and post more and actually post about the good things in life and give advice based off my own experience. One day i might even make a vlog. Cause im cool like that.